What the heck am I doing?

What the heck?
What the heck?
What the heck?

Recently I'm quite speechless. What I can say is "I... I... I..." "You... You... You..." "Aiyo... Aiyo... Aiyo..." "Speechless..."

What else? I'm turning into a quieter person, observant but emphasize on negative thoughts.

What happen?

You know, since I've mouth fight with my mom, I started to think that my mom is right and I'm wrong which past experience always proved it. So this time I'm going to limit myself from doing the wrong instead crushing my heart to follow my mom. I'd really had a good feeling about people but I dare not show it. I kept it to myself because I'm scared of building relationships with people.

I'm so afraid, I couldn't even find a friend who can spend me a night for movie. I've got this free movie ticket coupon from GSC but who is going to spend me a night? Shall I go alone? I think I will.

I can't even ...