Grief

Over the news of "no increment this year until the month of June. We will review again. If you are better than ever, I would recommend an increment..."

Please do not ask any further about this. I just do not want to flood my bed with tears.

Thanks...

Couldn't believe that this is the ultimate conclusion of my "One on One" session. I'm improving over these few months after the last "Chatting" session.

I serve the Lord high above, not the man who sometimes break my heart. I will continue to believe His grace and love is sufficient to carry me through. I love you God. This is first time I boldly confess I love God. His Words will provide me positive thoughts and His law will lead me like the lamp in the dark.

Thank God for the bad feelings but I still know you are with me. I shall not fear for the circumstances but I know you have a perfect plan. Teach me your ways, show me you work that I shall follow you. Give me wisdom to know you and do your ways. Amen.

Holiday during CNY.

I'm going on Company Trip to HK from 30th Jan - 3rd Feb.
Staying here:

Hotel Accomodation

Hotel : Metropark Hotel Wanchai

Address : 41-49 Hennessy Road, Wanchai, Hong Kong

Tel : 852-2861 1166

Fax : 852-2865 6111

If you need to tell me something, pls sms, don't call. I'll find time to reply you =P

Well, if you want some souvenirs or need to pass something to someone in HK, I might be able to help you if you inform me earlier :)

Love me, love me not.

Sometimes, when you are not sure, you go for random decision but sometimes, you are sure, you just do not want to hurt others nor yourself but that is a hard decision. Either decision you make will hurt one side or the other.

If you tell a person, "I love you", the person may reject you or he/she may accepts you. Either way you are not to risk losing a best friend of life because after you say that line, you no longer keep your friendship the way it was if the situation is not controlled with wisdom.

So, our mind tends to fight for the best way to go for. Whether to risk our friendship or to let ourselves be in the comfortable situation and make no steps forward.

Even though I'm a bit able to fight off some evil thoughts with the Truth, I'm still only at level 1 or 2 -- Rookie level. I still need to pursue a higher level in order to know how to make a wise decision and how to handle the emotional imbalance of making either good/bad decisions.

Sometimes, I just do not know what to consider when making a decision... why have I become like that? I used to know how to make decision? But do I or I just follow my feelings at that time of decision and used to get mad when things get in my way? I think I'm the later one.

This journey is not easy into transformation. My mind goes blank when I need to think of how and why. I can only work on what to do next. And by saying next I mean next minute or second. I can't plan for the next day, week or month before the actually time hits. No wonder my time management is so poor.

I can't even remember what to write after a few minutes later (I've been trying to write a new post since last week, but couldn't remember after something happen in between which distracted my thoughts).

I hope my friends would not give up hope on me. I will continue to improve and with God's help, I believe, I can be better.

The second weekend of 2009 has past and I've also realized the true friends in life. I love you, my true friends.

May be I should flashback on 2008 and see what I've done right and wrong and what I can give thanks and areas that I should improve. Erm... may be later tonight I'll draft it out.

^*^

=)

Hasta la vista

New Year - New Me

My last picture taken in year 2008:


The New Look:


I hope to generate a new appearance as well as practice to live in God by FAITH to allow Him to renew my spirit!

A New Beginning

When I typed the title for this post, I wonder, how can we have a new beginning? Haven't we all started with our life ever since we catch our first breath in the womb?

Today, I went shopping. I bought quite a lot of things and surprisingly today was a pleasant shopping day with my headache, not enough sleep and frustrated about things that people did not do as I expected them to do.

It was a day that I did not shout and make the shopping worse but I kept my voice low to just inform them about my feelings and keep quite for the rest of the shopping.

When we reach home, after 2 hours of rest and tv watching, we discovered that the skirt that I bought is more than RM 100!!! (If I'm drinking, I would really spilled!) I never thought I would spend so much for a skirt!

Well, I guess you all will have a new me in the coming days of this year. At the very least, a new appearance.

Hope to see you soon.

Adios, Amigos.

Gotta get some sleep, need to wake up early for work tomorrow =)

Good Night and Happy New Year!