Goodbye

 As the song 'Goodbye' sung by Air Supply keeps ringing in my ear, my heart is heavy.

1. Goodbye to the 15 months of freelancing / part-timing / random odd jobs. Right after 7 years with BIIT Consulting, I'm embarking with RHB on a totally different career path.
   
   Nervousness can be felt through my skin as I prepare myself to go back to the corporate life.
   
   Thank God for the past 15 months of non-stop provision. The prodigal daughter journey is coming to an end...
   
   
2. Goodbye to the freedom of waking up as and when I like or able to.
   
   A more discipline life with the financial institute that has strict rules & regulations, structured framework & processes to follow.
   
   Thank God for those good days of freedom and the future of disciplines. I hope to achieve something through these structures.
   
   
3. Goodbye to some people in my life that doesn't encourage growth in me. 
   
   Social decluttering is not easy but necessary at this age to keep only the ones who can continue journeying on with faith.
   
   Thank God for good friends who encourage, care, listen with patience, laugh at my not so humorous humor, always show me the bright side, pray, walk along side, never give up, love, and pat my back. I need to keep them, learn to maintain these friendships.
   
   
4. Goodbye to old eating habits. Signed up for a reverse diabetes program and hope that I can be healthier.
   
   No carbs. No carbs. No carbs. Protein & Veg is all I focus.
   
   Thank God for the program and the financial provision. The money I could save from reversing diabetes can be in thousands. I just pray for persistency in my food choices.
   
   
5. Goodbye to living with 1 housemate. Another person moved into where I'm renting now.
   
   A totally different dynamics to live with a totally opposite personality. I must say it takes a lot of adjustment to one who doesn't share the same common sense.
   
   Thank God for the addition to share the rental and also to spark some change. I pray for strong and healthy relationships through all the upcoming sparks.
   
   

It's a long process for me to say goodbye. It begins long before the actual separation happens. I need time to recognize the feelings, accept the change, embrace the pain, and take off into the new horizon.

My grief process is not much different from one whose loved one pass away. Goodbye to odd times, welcome the ordinary life.

The old must die for the new to grow. Goodbye the old. 

When I started this, I couldn't see it. Now, after gathering all my thoughts, I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. Hold on to the hope in Jesus Christ - who holds the keys of death and hades - who has the power of a resurrected life - an abundant life that prosper, flourish, and overflow of God's goodness!

凌晨十分

凌晨十分，我开始写作。哈哈~

今天是异常忙碌的一天。很多的变化，赶不上公司的计划。唯一不变的是上帝！

那亘古不变的上帝，以祂的信实托住了我这波动巨大的一天。开工2个星期以来最混乱的一天。

惟愿上帝继续帮助我——任遭何事不要惧怕，天父比看顾。

祂是唯一。我是不是也是这样看祂？

祂爱我80分，我爱祂才20分。怎么样才能提高我对祂的爱？

#gratitude #day7of10 learn to rely on God

It is difficult at first, when it comes to rely on someone, especially someone invisible. 

But then you come to think of it, we rely on air also without seeing it.

So, today I felt so stressed up because my money paid to pizzaexpress but the order was cancelled by the store on that day itself but refund was not. I spent so much time (countless) to look for another way apart from email and found a whatsapp number so I sent a text message but only getting an auto-reply later on.

Well, what else did I not give it up to God?

Thank God for always being there. When I'm weak, He is strong. Now I know what is means.

He will surely show me a way, the way that is good for me and pleases Him. 

So, apart from these little daily things that I feel I can use my human power to get what I want, what else I am holding back from God?

In fact, all areas if I feel I'm so good, easily I will just do it by myself and forget about God's involvement.

Thank God he won't so easily give up because He'd paid a price to redeem me from my sins, so that I can face Him and draw close to Him!

Help me, Father, to give you all I have and to rely on You for all the big or little things in my life. Teach me to surrender bit by bit until I am a pleasing sacrifice to You. Thank You, Lord. 

"This loneliness is killing me" vs “我寂寞寂寞就好” 

Take a look at this video when you're lonely :)

这个影片看看吧，不错治疗寂寞症。

Trust in difficult times

I pray that God, the source of hope, will fill you completely with joy and peace because you trust in Him. Then you will overflow with confident hope through the power of the Holy Spirit. ~ Romans 15:13 (NLT)

每一天都交托

愿耶和华使祂的脸光照你，赐恩给你

这是一个很棒的祷告文。让人充满希望因为把希望放在神那伟大的创造者身上。

生之救主

生之救主，爱我的灵魂；
竭尽所能为我牺牲。

爱我的君王，和平的君王；
十字架上仍赐盼望。

在您里面有活水涌流，
使我饥渴的灵得饱足。

生命的源头，生命的尽头，
都在你手中、掌控中。

一切都成空，应许不落空，
三日复活，后升天空。

您去预备那美好的地方，
您必再来接我回天家；
永永远远在您的家。