Too much to bear, too little submission

A trip I will treasure for my lifetime.

I don't have the luxury to detail it but I want to share a summary of God's power.

I was so tension to let go of this 'sister-ship' fear that when I let go, the 'ship' will sail away. After 2 days 2 nights of deep talk, these sisters assured me that the Love of Christ is always there, always there. The moment I let go and let God, I will never loose them because the foundation is Christ who is our center.

Oh, Christ Jesus, my holy husband, whom I belong to, who has the power of life and death, who holds the future, who created all things including me -- wonderfully made in His image to reflect His Glory according to His will. 

I will turn back to Him, my good good Father. The lover of my soul and the counselor of my being. There's no fear in perfect love. Perfect Love from the Lord, my God, fills my heart, touches the most tender part, embraces my deepest longing. No matter my shape, my looks, my voice, my height, my strength, my weaknesses, my ability, my everything, I surrender before the Cross. The mighty cross that takes away all shame and free me from the bondage of grabbing tightly to what I think I possess.

Oh Lord, help me to trust you with my whole being. To love my God withawith my heart, all my soul, all my strength, all my mind for the rest of my life, however many years to come. In God, I find peace, love, and hope to continue to go on. He holds the future that I don't know. He holds the remote control when I think I have it all. For all things work together for those who obey God.

It's who you are, God. That makes me who I am. Not the other way around. I love because you first love me. You filled my heart with all the love and enabled me to overflow and love others around me.

I surrender all my doubts, worries, uncertainties, unknowns, fear, into the hands of God. I trust God to protect, provide, position me the best. When I do not understand, I will still obey and go. Thank God for the love you've shown to me through godly 'sister-ship'.

Amen.

Japanese worship song - I adore you

It's so rare to see Japanese worship Jesus, even rarer for them to have a song.

Tears rolling down my face every time I hear this song. 

Indeed, have I love Jesus enough? After he have loved me so so much. So so deeply. So so unconditionally. 

Does God feel bored?

How does God keep himself busy? I mean with a snap, no, not even a snap, just a word and things get done. So, doesn't God feel bored after doing what He just did?

Why human does? Is there a cure to this?

Basically, is it a goal problem? I thought to myself. Is it because I don't have a concrete goal, therefore, after being creative for a while, I feel bored? Or was it like what I heard -- because I couldn't express my feelings?

Well, interesting isn't it? We're like God -- creative; yet, not like God because we have a lot of negative stuff.

Thank God for the negative feelings, it helps me to re-focus, re-adjust, re-align, re-united with Your divine goal.

How do I feel and where is God?

I started writing this morning in chinese for quite a fair bit (approx. 1 hour) then I decided to continue working, cooking my meals, eating, working,... then I remember I haven't finish my writing...

But I decided to keep it as a draft until I've given more thought about it.

I decided to focus on thanking God instead.

Thank God I have a realisation that some areas of my life you're not included.

Thank God it's not too late.

Thank God I managed to cook some food for myself while working from home and being a part-time housewife (e.g. taking note of the weather turning from sunny to cloudy, need to rush outside to collect clothes before pouring).

Thank God my grandpa is able to take in little bit of liquid/soft food through his mouth.

Thank God my mom is arranging/discussing/planning for the care of grandpa once he's discharged.

Thank God I realised I didn't follow what I had in mind today. Gotta really get focus. (lack of coffee maybe? 😆 blame the coffee ☕)

When I focus on thanking God, I will be focus and not stray to the left or right.

Lastly, thank God for my father, who cared for me, gave me the best he could, love me, giving me a comfortable roof over my head, lack of nothing I shall say. 

~ Thank God for fathers ~

美食电影——用美食温暖人心 Food Movies -- Touches hearth with food

看过美食电影，心里温暖。父亲节看看这些努力的厨师父亲们为梦想、为爱、为孩子的奋斗，坚持不懈的精神。

My heart warms up watching these movies of great chef dads, who never gives up fighting for their dreams, for love, for their children! May you enjoy these during Fathers' Day~

1. Le Chef (王牌大主厨)

 

2. Chef (落魄大厨)

2020-06-10

Today, I've learned a bit more about the most popular programming language in the world now, call Python. Doesn't the name bothers you? It does to me.

Anyway, wasn't busy today, had time to learn tamagoyaki for lunch and did my gardening and online course after dinner.

Had some time to update some contacts and a friend I haven't contacted for many years ran across my screen... I clicked into the fb FB profile and saw the news feed with updates. It's good to know this friend is doing well before Malaysia MCO started. Just hope everything is still well now after 4 months...

Don't think I'm ready to click the Add Friend button yet... So many past memories guys until my brain. Enough for the night. Focus on who I want to be and what I need to do first. 

五月天 [ 突然好想見到你 ] Mayday live in the sky 線上演唱會

听着五月天，想念着当初4个人的组合，一起慢性自杀（熬夜）的日子，一起凌晨游车河，一起帮其中一个追女孩，一起庆祝生日，一起大吃大喝，一起唱K到凌晨，一起，一起，很多的一起。如今少了一个，我们也不再那么常见面了……



新的朋友，新的事物，无法取代那时的心情和关系。但是，还是要往前进！



五月的天代表着六月的来临！创建新的记忆！Mayday, mayday, mayday, to my new friends~