Printer? Toaster?

Wow! This is so the cool!




http://asia.cnet.com/crave/2009/12/22/toaster-looks-like-printer-behaves-like-one/?scid=nl_c_dp

I wonder if they can print something else on the toasted area? :-P

Women, you need strength training!

http://www.quakeroats.ca/en/oats-and-you/for-your-health/womens-health/the-benefits-of-strength-training-for-women.aspx

天空 · Sky

我喜欢天空。

瞻仰天空，他总是在云的另一端。

虽然我看不见他的脸孔，可是我知道他在看顾着我。领我走过死荫的幽谷，总不撇下丢弃我。

我时常偏行己路，他却常保护。

他住在天上，云的另一端。

他是爱我的天父 <3

Happiness

How? (Typical C (DISC) Type)

I was asked, "What makes you happy?"

I have no idea!?

What do you do that would make you happy? I don't know. Deep down in my heart, I really don't know.

I smile when I watch drama, laugh at those jokes, cry when the scenes are touching but what makes me happy?

I can never make myself happy. The only thing I know is when other people recognised what I do is correct and accept it, I am happy. But most of the time, I only blame myself for not being able to do something that makes the other person happy.

I couldn't just walk away from depression... these mood swings is causing my life!

May be it's time to go to bed and hope that tomorrow will be a better day!

Tomorrow is a new beginning and I hope to open up my eyes to see a bright future :-)

Hero . Surrender . Love

"There's a hero, if you look inside your heart, you don't have to be afraid of what you are..."

"Surrender all you have."

"For My love is sufficient to sustain you."

These are thought I have until this moment of the day. Why? There are changes in my life. Every time when something changes, I get anxiety attack. I get so worried about why it changes and make too quick a decision I regret later. The uncertainty after the change makes me more worried than ever.

I kept hearing my mind singing "Hero". I saw a blogger blogged about Surrender. I know the love of God is sufficient to sustain mine and everyone else's life. But I am just so anxious. May be I am a control freak. I cannot let things go hay wire or ahead of me. I felt insecure.

I have a Hero who would die for me yet I did not surrender myself fully to Him to receive His wonderful and abundant Love. I just don't know why. I kept some part of me to myself.

I am in the middle of a journey to believe I can live only by His grace and trust only Him. As long as He never give up on me, I should never give up. Wen told me to put some confidence in this. As far as I believe He is my protector and hero, I will one day get to the place where I believe He is all I live for.

Laugh of the day!

甲：你年薪多少?
乙：800万.
甲：那一个月有80万哦!
乙：是的,这是基本工资.
甲：不错嘛,做什么的?
乙：做梦的......

1、"代沟"就是我问老爸觉得"菊花台"怎么样,他说没喝过
2、"自恋"就是下辈子我一定要投胎做女人,然后嫁个象我这样的男人
3、"无语"就是法官问:你为什么印假钞? 罪犯说:真钞我不会印。
4、"绝望"就是饭馆吃饭点了两菜,吃第一个:"世上还有比这更难吃的吗？！"吃第二个"靠！还真有!
5、"崩溃"就是，一位老太太走进ＫＦＣ,对服务员说：我要一个肯德基,一个麦当劳，还要一个比萨。
6、"白领"- 今天发了薪水，还了贷款,交了房租、水电煤气费，买了油、米和泡面，摸摸口袋剩下的钱，感叹一声：这月工资又白领了。
7、"蓝领" - 工头说快到发工资的时间了，一算自己的住宿费，伙食费，误工费，医药费，还欠老板100多，也就懒得去领了，叫蓝领.

Adapted from http://laozhabor.blogspot.com/2009/10/happy-mid-autumn-festival.html

You could have long gone.

Have you heard of this?

I have. In fact, I heard it mostly from direct sales agent. Why? Because they always testify to others saying that you could have long gone if you have not use our product.

Sounds true to me. I could have long gone if I haven't know Jesus Christ when I was going to be 12. A traumatic event could have sent me to the edge of committing suicide or a bad friendship could have lead me to become a drug addict and eventually die of using.

I should be grateful and I am but there is something keeping me from enjoying the joy of this revelation...

Yet, let me repeat, "I could have long gone, if I have not known Jesus Christ!"

Life . Change . Maintain

Ever since being diagnosed with diabetes, I started taking the med. I have no idea how these med are going to help but eventually my glucose level has been brought down near to normal level.

I now have to monitor my meals, make sure I eat right, sleep right and exercise right to maintain my health in order to prolong my life on earth. I have realised one thing in this process. Not even drugs can change anything over night. It is a process itself.

There are so many areas of my life which has not grown into maturity. They stay as it is since teenage until now. I had wished before that there would be one kind of drugs that can immediately change everything to new but there is no such thing eh.

Change is a process of life that no one can escape. Whether you like it or not, when situation changes, you'll be forced to change as well. Sometimes we fail; other times, we move on. Anyhow, we have to get back on track to make life better. It is not something we can not do and still progress. Change is the progress.

No matter how grateful I am back to life, nothing changed. I still need to work, I still face stress from work and all sorts of circumstances that forced me to make decisions. I still need to take the drugs to control my blood sugar, I still am not able to take breakfast because of the nauseous feeling in the morning.

However, I am alive! I need to maintain life by maintaining the changes I need to go through and overcome the obstacles that stop me from changing.

I have realised one thing. No matter how bad I have been, God still loves me. He never change and He maintained it that way all the time. We change so that we become more like Him and do things that pleases Him.

Although I sin, His grace is sufficient. When I fall down, He helped me up. He brought sunlight to my life and angels to kept me from falling. Have I not felt His presence?

The thing is, I have always fail to change to maintain life. I have failed Him not once but many times. I worried if He would turn away from me but I know He will not at least for now. Even if I purposely hurt Him by sinning against Him, He still comes and hugs me and said, "My daughter, that hurts but I still love you. " How much more I can run away from His abundant love? How far can I run to not see Him? No way. No way I am going to run away from all these changes I need to make.

The med, the exercise, the diet plan, the stress in life, the good and bad situations, the strong and weak part of me, they all need to change. Life is all about changing into a better person and to maintain it so that you know it's not by your strength that you can achieve it but by the hands of God who never change that mold you into a pleasant container of His love.

Coming back from Death

Hi,

I have been grateful to be alive.

The underwater fining, drifting, photographing makes the whole trip filled with joy. I'm having sea sick now. How I wish I am a fish that will not get sea sick and can stay underwater as long as I want. Nevertheless, I'm back. I was not hurt at all just not used to the "wavy" lifestyle on and in the sea.

Every dive, I was nervous. Every dive is dangerous to me. God protected me. Even the fish did not harm me. We'd enjoyed ourselves with our bosses, colleagues. What a wonderful experience we had.

We celebrated our COO's birthday there and had a sarung party that night! Wow, now that I think back, it was so cool to be able to celebrate birthday in a different way. May be next time he'll get his birthday celebration underwater with the sarung as well!

I was extremely exhausted when I reach home. I guess this is the peer pressure the doctor told me. I was forcing myself to do things I may not even think about in the first place. However, it was an enjoyable trip because from there I see all the colleagues are careful with me, the dive master always turn around to make sure I'm ok (or may be she was trying to see if everyone is ok). Anyway, everybody knows what I'm going through and was careful not to force me into anything too much for my body. They even care about what I eat for my meals. I was scolded when I took nasi lemak in the morning on the day back. I was thinking that it was alright since we're going home and I haven't been tasting their food. But they were concern and told me it wasn't right to let loose of control.

Well, it was a wonderful trip for me and I will never forget the experience even if I don't get to dive again. At least, the warmth from the concern and care of the colleagues and bosses were all over me. I am grateful to be alive!

If there is one thing I can do in the future, I would want to go dive without getting sea sick. Then I can enjoy a few days of fishes, sea water, sand, beaches, sun, the breeze from the sea, the stress-less moments, and feel God's been watching me from the sky above.

It was raining the night we departed from KL to Terengganu. We were hoping it will be sunny in the morning the next day. Thank God, it started raining only after we have completed all 5 dives and took our underwater photographs.

I just don't know how to express but I'm grateful to be back and alive and still in one piece!

Yeah~ breathing becomes one of the most exciting thing to do on land!

Life is but grateful after you realised living is the greatest thing on earth!

Death

I have never felt so near to death. For the first time, I decided to do something which is adventurous and dangerous due to my health condition.

Diving.

My company is organising a diving certification trip to Redang. I did not get doctor's consent but am very excited to go. However, due to certain health condition, there was a time I almost give up. Once I am in the pool, I felt like going to dive again.

So, today is the day we are departing to Redang. Dead or alive, I called it. I even sent an email to my dearest friends to inform them of my leaving and told them that could be my last words. I called my mom and dad and sis last night to tell them about my trip and it sounded like saying goodbye.

Don't take me wrong. I wasn't going to say goodbye but am preparing for any emergency cases. I am still looking forward to an appointment 2 weeks later. However, with the mind of everything is going to end soon, I feel more energetic to complete the things I'm suppose to do. It's a wonderful feeling. I guess that is why we are told to live like today is the last day you get to live and then you will do your best and enjoy the most of out life.

I was told I will meet Him -- my dearest Daddy there under the sea. If I get to dive, I suppose all His wonders will be unfolded in front of my eyes! I felt loved. I know even if I don't really feel it, He still loves me and will continue to love me no matter how rebellious I become.

Well, just to make sure I leave something behind if I can't do this again, I'd like to tell you, Jesus love you and me. No matter what, His love never ceased!

Journey of Faith - The starting point

If I were to start off a journey, I won't do it by myself. I have not enough ability to do it alone. I have friends who encouraged me along the way and people who cares enough to lend me their time and ears. Good people who share good advice and finally the good Lord who never forsake me.

At the very least, I have admitted that I need a doctor and look for one and found one. It is just the beginning. There are many more challenges I have never wanted to pursue in front of me but I cannot deny that those are the things that I need to do to be healed/cured from the disease. Or, I can choose to stay at this very point and sink like a ship, which I do not want to do that anymore.

So, I have to trained my physical body to be fit all the time and my keep myself psychologically healthy to prolong the journey of faith. May be I will succeed or fail but at least I tried to be successful instead of running away again this time.

Thank God for the courage and I pray that He who have strengthen me will continue to have mercy on me until I am fit for His kingdom.

Diary 20090910

Once again, that stress overwhelmed. I could not bear. I cannot accept the comment that says, "Do you know what is priority? Why can't you finish your work?" So, does priority means I can kill myself just to deliver what you want?

May be I should just admit and say, "Yes, sir. I cannot finish my work. Can you take over or have someone take over?" It's hard to take people's disappointment but I think it's time to just let them disappoint them let my life beheaded in their hands.

The next time this issue arise, I shall not hesitate and admit my fault and ask for someone else to do it. I can't. I just can't.

Error 80071392: We can't sign you in to Windows Live Messenger

When you see this message, it is possible you have more than one messenger program running on your computer, trying to sign in with the same account (especially when you checked the check box to allow messenger to sign in automatically).

You may do this to resolve the problem:

1. Press Ctrl + Alt + Del to open Task Manager.
2. find and End Process for all msnmsgr.exe in the Task Manager.
3. Start Windows Live Messenger. You should be able to sign in now!

Happy trying!

Pandemic Panic

Life's short and we ought to live well.

One of the guy in my project office was diagnosed with H1N1. I have to be thankful the virus did not spread. I stayed at home to work. Just to prevent from being infected and spreading the virus.

I am ok til now.

No one knows what is going to happen tomorrow. May be tomorrow I discover I have some kinda weird disease and is going to die soon but that's just another revelation of life.

=====

Life's about live it out well.

孤独 · 面对

梦醒时分，朦胧的阳光；萎缩在被单里不敢露出脚丫。
夜悄悄来到，放大了虫鸣的寂静；逃避在戏剧里不敢回到现实。

Sad Cloudy August 11, 2009

Gravity - Sara Bareilles

Recently I fell in love with this song


I was kept down and blinded. Just like all those who are in love. The difference is mine is not of love but the difficult situations of life is keeping me down...

Lyrics | Sara Bareilles lyrics - Gravity lyrics

Bones

It has just become my favorite American series!

Love

I started to wonder about love again. Sometimes, we just say we love this someone someone or we love else one. But what is love really?

Is doing something means love? No. That's the action of love.
Is not doing something love? No. That's being nice.

So, what is love exactly?

May be I'm too rational and I couldn't feel any love at all... that's why marriage is such a dream for a person like me.

I spend a lot of time thinking but in the end the conclusion is null. Human love can change at anytime, how am I suppose to keep my promise during the wedding vow? Therefore, to make no further mistakes, I'd rather keep myself out of marriage (failure).

Marriage

I don't get it. Why two people were in love for such a long time and didn't want to get married but yet they were involved in pre-marital sex and had to get married in the end because the woman is pregnant!

I just can't figure it out.

That's part of the reason I'm resisting any serious relationships... I think any pro-longed relationships can caused the scenario I mentioned above which I think is going to hurt the marriage and the child in the stomach actually knows...

What if you're the baby with such condition of the parents? You'll never ever get to grow normally because deep in your subconscious, you always know, you're the undesired one who caused a "look-like" happy marriage. Sad, isn't it?

Computer Starters Must Know

If you are a newbie to the computer world. Make sure you know this:
How to be a better computer user

Do not complaint later that your computer becomes so inefficient and unproductive.. It's all your own fault!

Classic Example of Browser Toolbars

Nokia - The power to last longer

Now I know why Nokia is the most expensive brand in the olden days and still many people opt to get one. At least they are still "alive" today compare to other brands.

Friendship

First of all, I am weird. So, it is not a surprise to have weird friends.

There is one friend. You can guess in the end whether is he or she.

X is my friend. A weird friend. How weird is X? When I first met X, I notice X is very friendly, outspoken. I thought X would be pretty nice to befriend with but due to my fear of relationships, we never become friends until later. Another friend of mind always hang out with X and we met one night and that was a start of this @@ friendship. Everything seems well when we only meet at night once in a while to have dinner or supper.

We actually had some good time but over time, X's attitude caught some attention. Some of my friends advised me not to be too nice with X because X seems to be "using" me. I didn't care too much and didn't feel like X is "using" me.

Although some of my friends felt unfair for me but we still think that X would be a good companion for a trip together. During the trip, something happened. X is not sporty enough and that makes the whole trip sunk into a tension boycotting mess.

Immediately after the trip, we didn't talk about this but the whole group of friends seemed to have a mutual understanding that X is not a buddy to hang out with and slowly none of the events organised have X in the invitation list.

I don't know how to say this but I felt quite tired in between. I felt like why can't X give me a break? I think may be X didn't know X's problem and didn't change.

I don't want to care anymore. From now on, X is weird and let X have the X power continue to rule X's world but my world is going to come clean from X's power and territory. I will be very clear and very straight forward. If things just didn't work out between me and X, then I guess I have to sing Mariah Carey's hit song "Bye Bye" to X. I always use the word "c ya" to indicate that we will see each other again but to hear bye bye from me it's really hoping we will not meet again.

Anyway, I haven't figure out how to make this clear to X. I thought I could hope that X felt what we are doing to X and will ask me why and how but nothing from X. I think X is just ignorant about all we are doing.

I am weird, X is weird. We just am different in this weird world. I guess, I have my own friends and X deserver to have X's full stop.

Insecurity

I have serious security problems.

I am insecure. So insecure, I just want to be isolated!

If I'm rich enough, I'd stay in a confined asylum room. I think I'm crazy and by thinking this, I am really crazy. Who thinks themselves are crazy?

I'm crazy.

You know the feeling of insecure? so insecure, you think when you hold your fist you just feel nothing!

I felt die to the world... do you care? No one cares! I don't care! Can I just stay up whole night and let myself nearer to the end of my life?

Stressful

A stressful life does not do me any good. I think my sugar level is too high and is causing my irritating stress.


if I have a chance to shout, I'd... I don't know what would I do. I don't normally try to do something that is harmful to other people for example irritate their ears.

I'd want to make sure all things are done perfectly but all things are not in perfect shape!

I've lost people to talk to. They just think I'm an idiot and I am. I am so imperfect and that irritates me!


Argh! Can I have a room with broadband connection with high bandwidth and I just stay there watch all the American drama series and just die there?

I just don't know why others live and for what they live?
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No one care because I don't care.

So what's for dinner? what's for breakfast? what's for lunch? or should I have nothing for all of the above? Argh...

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Relationships

I think nowadays BGR is no longer the heat story but GGR/BBR. However, the questions I had in mind is still about this BGR problem people faced.

I have a male friend, who likes a gal and willing to pursue her as his gf. He hasn't succeed yet. I felt that the gal has nothing romantic with him but he is like so infactuated with her, he was so upset she went out with a guy for dinner. Come on, they have nothing more than normal friendship...
-_-|||

Today, when I was having my morning bath, I think through a lot of things. One thing I had to admit, I have a serious relationship problem. I don't like to build relationships. I don't like people. I don't like guys and I don't like gals. Oh, have to mention, I don't like trans as well. I just don't like anyone. People used up my energy, power, time, everything and in the end what I have is just alone in the solitary night.

Well, may be it's the facts that people has been writing about relationships making me felt worse about being in a relationship. I do many things just out of obligation, not because I wanted to do them, I just do them. Like any soldiers of loyalty, they receive order and complete the mission without questions.

I kept thinking if one day I die, I will have no one to attend my wake service, my burial service and I just left alone for the bugs, the soil and the crops to consume by life-less body. I just felt no excitment about life about things I want to do, about all the most interesting things I've ever done before like love to play basketball, like to window shop basketball shoes, chit-chat over the rainbow. Now I just kept myself in the movies I watch. No one actually understand, including myself, why I won't stop watching american drama series. I'm so addicted. I've built a bond, a strong relationship, with these dramas and I'd hope I'd become one of those character in life.

May be, I'm better off with the life-less things than the human factor relationships. Especially when people working together is giving me stress I couldn't handle. I have, in my lifetime, trying to please everyone but myself. Sad, isn't it... T_T

had a bad day...

Today is a bad day.. it all because I did not do good for the past and it turns out to be a bad one today.

To the dearest people who haven't heard from me since

Hi. I do not know why I don't have anything to write before. I guess I am just testing my endurance and your patience.

I don't know what is in the future and I don't know I have created history but now, I want to tell you, Thank you for caring about me. However, if you keep quite all the time, I don't know what you are thinking. Am I bothering you too much? Or am I being naive to wait for you to come to me?

Alright. I guess, my brain is the culprit. Who kept lying to me about your love. Who kept me from believing you still care.

Thanks for caring. I will live now.

coquettish

Some use this word to describe an action like a spoiled child from a woman to a man...

Today, I had this feeling again. I was thinking why can't I be coquettish to anyone who loves me like my mom, my dad, my siblings or just any close friend. I just can't. Then, there is this picture in my mind. There is one person, a very special person. In front of that person, I can become a kitty or at least I can learn to become one... That's the only person that comes into my mind. No one else.

Twins

Today I went to search the Japanese drama that was once shown on Astro. I have been looking for this tv series for quite some time but just like those people on the Internet, I fail to get a copy of this.

There is a DVD box set selling in Japan... I hope someday, someone would get it for me from Japan.. but after I read the synopsis, I realised that what I like about the movie is where the life of the character is during they adolescence. After that, I don't really want to watch because it's a 50 episodes movie...

Anyway, I still like it a lot.

The ultimate reason to upgrade to IE 8!!

After reading the article from CNET, I finally know why I need to upgrade my IE browser...

At first, I thought I shall not when I read this:

Using the SunSpider JavaScript test, the official IE 8 scored 9849.4ms on a Windows Vista machine with 2GB of RAM and a 3GHz clock. This is significantly slower than most other major browsers. Not surprisingly, Microsoft claims (scroll down to Case Study Videos) that these kinds of speed tests aren't relevant to how most people use their browser, and there may be some legitimacy to that.

Still slower than most major browsers, I thought, nah, why resort to a slower browser when you have the faster ones.

But I continue reading all the interesting features in IE 8 until finally:

Drawbacks aside, there's no reason not to upgrade if you're an old fan of IE, and there's even a few things in IE 8 for new users. Even though there are some nice usability features in IE 8, I think Internet Explorer has a long way to go to replace the damage that the notoriously insecure IE 6 did to its reputation.

Now I know, it's not that we all need to use IE 8 but those who are IE users should upgrade their IE to IE 8. :p

And for this, I know that IE 6 is so damage, that IE's reputation can hardly please those who've since sourced for other browsers... Too bad. I do hope one day IE will really become better, for the sake of many web applications.

P/S: I wonder why other browsers are getting better but not IE? hmm 0.o

MS Office

I've been getting the annoying message from my Microsoft Office Applications.

Which a pop up box kept saying:
Title: MS Office Live Add-in
Message: Connecting to the network failed. Try again later.

I'm like so the blur what is this add-in message keeps bugging! Until I found this:
http://www.pcreview.co.uk/forums/thread-3729967.php

Solution:
excel options > add-ins > comm add-ins > go > uncheck office live add-in > ok

Phew~ at least now I know there is this annoying add-in keeps bugging!

Batman - The Dark Knight

I've just finish watching the movie of Batman - The Dark Knight.

The only conclusion that I have is, "Who are you to think that you can outlive anyone?"
Often times, I thought I'm better, I feel proud of what I've done but what about the things I do when no one sees me? What about the bad thoughts I've had about someone?

I've never felt so bad. My spirit is broken.
I need some time off. I could barely breathe.

Sins and guilt, fear and greed, I've got them all just like anyone on the earth. For what reason shall I feel any better about what I did? I have none. Do you?

...

Green, Pink, Yellow, Blue, White, Purple, and Black

A girl came for a job interview.
To test her English, Boss ask her to create sentences with the colour:
green, pink, yellow, blue, white, purple, and black.
She answered:
I hear phone 'GREEN GREEN', then i go and 'PINK' up the phone, and i say 'YELLOW BLUES' that?
'WHITE' did you say?
oh wrong number, don't PURPLELY' disturb people and don't call 'BLACK' okay?
Boss say: You can go black now and wait for the phone green green.

LOL!

Adapted from: http://utopiastaging.blogspot.com/2007/11/green-pink-yellow-blue-white-purple-and.html

Kek Sim

For Malay speaking friends, please do not think this is some kinda cake that calls Sim. This is a Hokkien translation of Malay sakit hati or English heartache.

I feel so "kek sim" about someone. He is a friend but he has lost his faith. He resents God because of some unhappy events/incidents happened in the past. He cannot see the good side of God and enjoys his current life.

It is surely, none of my business to care about how he is living because we were not so called close friends. But he is a friend and I felt the responsibility to let him know that God is not what he thinks so. The unhappy events were caused by human beings that do not rely 100% of their lives on God.

Although, I am not relying myself 100% on God yet but I see the importance of achieving that and I felt so heart broken when I saw his face of dissappointment with God. Whenever I bring this topic up, he is more or less telling me that he is interested but with a boring face.

Well, I think, this is a common problem we all have. We said we love someone but when that someone doesn't respond to our love, we will no longer love him/her. We often choose to only love things that please us. What about events of sufferings that helped us to grow? In the process, we hate those events and we do not like to follow them. We bring more sufferings to ourselves.

My toe nails always grow into the flesh beside the nails and this caused huge uncomfortable until I cannot walk. To make sure I can feel comfortable, I had to use sharp edge scissors to cut out the nails which is a painful process but it is sure to bring peace after I do that. I think the life process is more or less similar. There are nails cutting into the flesh like all earthly events we go through everyday. We will not feel it until it is so deep into the flesh, we could feel the pain killing us. And then we cry out to God and ask Him why didn't He remove those events. Then, we felt greater pain because God is working to remove the nails. But instead of trusting God to cut the nails, we shouted, stop, I'd rather stay with the average pain then to break free from it. We just do not want to suffer greater pain which we do not know but will free us later.

Well, what Jesus said in the Bible is so true that sometimes the good has been revealed to us but we do not understand and know and foremost trust that it will lead us to freedom.

Remain in sin is comfortable because you have already used to the pain. To break free, we need faith and trust that God is always there throughout the process. Our sufferings will end with joy and peace one day. Til then, keep it on. Have faith and march on.

I hope one day, this friend that give me a heartache will see and realise how God is good and great to him and he will rely and love God again.

Grief

Over the news of "no increment this year until the month of June. We will review again. If you are better than ever, I would recommend an increment..."

Please do not ask any further about this. I just do not want to flood my bed with tears.

Thanks...

Couldn't believe that this is the ultimate conclusion of my "One on One" session. I'm improving over these few months after the last "Chatting" session.

I serve the Lord high above, not the man who sometimes break my heart. I will continue to believe His grace and love is sufficient to carry me through. I love you God. This is first time I boldly confess I love God. His Words will provide me positive thoughts and His law will lead me like the lamp in the dark.

Thank God for the bad feelings but I still know you are with me. I shall not fear for the circumstances but I know you have a perfect plan. Teach me your ways, show me you work that I shall follow you. Give me wisdom to know you and do your ways. Amen.

Holiday during CNY.

I'm going on Company Trip to HK from 30th Jan - 3rd Feb.
Staying here:

Hotel Accomodation

Hotel : Metropark Hotel Wanchai

Address : 41-49 Hennessy Road, Wanchai, Hong Kong

Tel : 852-2861 1166

Fax : 852-2865 6111

If you need to tell me something, pls sms, don't call. I'll find time to reply you =P

Well, if you want some souvenirs or need to pass something to someone in HK, I might be able to help you if you inform me earlier :)

Love me, love me not.

Sometimes, when you are not sure, you go for random decision but sometimes, you are sure, you just do not want to hurt others nor yourself but that is a hard decision. Either decision you make will hurt one side or the other.

If you tell a person, "I love you", the person may reject you or he/she may accepts you. Either way you are not to risk losing a best friend of life because after you say that line, you no longer keep your friendship the way it was if the situation is not controlled with wisdom.

So, our mind tends to fight for the best way to go for. Whether to risk our friendship or to let ourselves be in the comfortable situation and make no steps forward.

Even though I'm a bit able to fight off some evil thoughts with the Truth, I'm still only at level 1 or 2 -- Rookie level. I still need to pursue a higher level in order to know how to make a wise decision and how to handle the emotional imbalance of making either good/bad decisions.

Sometimes, I just do not know what to consider when making a decision... why have I become like that? I used to know how to make decision? But do I or I just follow my feelings at that time of decision and used to get mad when things get in my way? I think I'm the later one.

This journey is not easy into transformation. My mind goes blank when I need to think of how and why. I can only work on what to do next. And by saying next I mean next minute or second. I can't plan for the next day, week or month before the actually time hits. No wonder my time management is so poor.

I can't even remember what to write after a few minutes later (I've been trying to write a new post since last week, but couldn't remember after something happen in between which distracted my thoughts).

I hope my friends would not give up hope on me. I will continue to improve and with God's help, I believe, I can be better.

The second weekend of 2009 has past and I've also realized the true friends in life. I love you, my true friends.

May be I should flashback on 2008 and see what I've done right and wrong and what I can give thanks and areas that I should improve. Erm... may be later tonight I'll draft it out.

^*^

=)

Hasta la vista

New Year - New Me

My last picture taken in year 2008:


The New Look:


I hope to generate a new appearance as well as practice to live in God by FAITH to allow Him to renew my spirit!

A New Beginning

When I typed the title for this post, I wonder, how can we have a new beginning? Haven't we all started with our life ever since we catch our first breath in the womb?

Today, I went shopping. I bought quite a lot of things and surprisingly today was a pleasant shopping day with my headache, not enough sleep and frustrated about things that people did not do as I expected them to do.

It was a day that I did not shout and make the shopping worse but I kept my voice low to just inform them about my feelings and keep quite for the rest of the shopping.

When we reach home, after 2 hours of rest and tv watching, we discovered that the skirt that I bought is more than RM 100!!! (If I'm drinking, I would really spilled!) I never thought I would spend so much for a skirt!

Well, I guess you all will have a new me in the coming days of this year. At the very least, a new appearance.

Hope to see you soon.

Adios, Amigos.

Gotta get some sleep, need to wake up early for work tomorrow =)

Good Night and Happy New Year!