Friday, August 13, 2010

New Blog Look

I like my new blog look! Thanks the template creator, Josh Peterson!

有些。。。

有些生命故事看了百遍依然感动落泪;
有些好音乐听了千遍仍然安慰人心;
有些真理记在心里,思考万遍总是有新发现。

Friday, July 16, 2010

Car Accident

I met with a car accident 3 nights ago. It was a minor car accident but several things I learned from it:
  1. My Heavenly Dad loves me. He had one of His angels -- Angel to pray for me.
  2. My dad loves me very much. He understand that I am like him, who will feel anxious in such situation and keep reminding me to calm down.
  3. I drive carelessly due to unconscious driving. My mind was wandering while driving.
  4. No snacks in car. If you are hungry, get to the nearest rest station and have something before you move on.
  5. I shall not overwork and drive.
  6. I need to relax.
  7. Finally, do not do anything under unhealthy stress.
I shall train myself to leave work early and think no more about work when I am not in the office.

This car accident wasn't just some incident. I think is my Daddy calling me from above. Take heed lest you fall.

Relax

A little instrumental music + a cup of fresh brewed coffee + a good book + a timeless afternoon

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

东窗事发

第三次了。我在车上睡觉已经是第三次了。可是,这次我泊在后巷,居然在凌晨五点钟有人来敲窗,让我把引擎关上因为吵到他们睡觉。我有一百个不明白,可是后来我决定离开,想了一下,就回到公司来。同事说,公司才是我的第一个家,我想这话是对的。

昨晚,在开车时一直想东西,结果心不在焉撞到了在交通灯前无辜的受害者。我只知道当时我很饿,很累,一心想回公司把工作完成然后回家。不想,却发生了悲剧。不单要给别人赔偿,自己的车子也需要修理。最后我还是回到公司工作,打了电话让同事来帮忙看看车子。后来,还是工作到了半夜,妈妈打电话来教训了我一顿。是的,我是该被骂一顿了。工作到凌晨一点左右,收拾好了离开。回到住处,发现停满了车子,只有后巷可以停泊。我想说,没事,就把车停在后巷。不想,又发生了不愉快的结局。

我该怎么办?足不出户还是避免开车或者把公司当成家还是……

前两次,车子泊在屋旁的小巷子没事,今天却发生了这样的事。最终我还是必须回答这个问题:“为什么选择在车上过夜?”我只能够说,回去睡觉而不洗澡室友会不喜欢,冲凉又会吵到另一个室友。归根究底,我干嘛一开始就选择留在公司到深夜?我还是放不下吗?自己曾经也说过工作是做不完的,何必为了工作而忽略了其他的事情呢?

渐渐发现,我在许多方面都有问题,而且已经成为问题了的问题。就比如说,心理不平衡是正常的,但是心理不平衡而开始杀人那就是问题了。所以我的问题已经发展成后者般严重了。工作不敢拿假期,除非有什么事务在身比如圣诞节节目练习;和室友同住不敢睡觉不先洗澡,虽然还是有几次;乱花钱导致严重不够支付生活费而需要挨饿或者在公司和热饮;精神不集中,开车撞倒别的车子;不会做的工作不敢问,似乎还怕别人用“你烦不烦啊”的眼神回答我的问题,……

很多很多理不清的问题,大大小小影响着我的生活。开车怕车祸,回家怕室友,工作怕眼色,……什么时候开始,我变成这样贪生怕死的兔崽子了?

人家说我们做事应当出于爱就万事OK。可是我做事就是出于害怕吧,不然我想我应该换工/换环境了。在这里工作了三年却不觉得自己有什么长进反而笨了、怕了。尤其是有权利的人。比如今天早上的敲窗事件,到底我是应该道歉还是应该告诉他我也是在尝试睡觉?可怜的我连这样都要问……

千万不要问我,你还好吗?我的答案大概是不知道。好是怎么定义的呢?经过这些事会好吗?反过来问,经过这些事就不会好吗?

最后,我想问,我为了什么写这一些还放上网?是想让别人知道我的近况、想法?那我为什么不找个朋友来说说?嗯,屈指一数,朋友到底有几个?我不知道。不是多到不知道,而是不知道谁才是朋友……向我这等人,怎么还能够活到今天?这难道还不是神迹吗?

Monday, July 12, 2010

记忆中的美好

今天,趁老板出差,忙里偷闲。浏览了面子书,看到了一些很旧的照片,也略略翻阅了一些同学的照片。嗯,这一切一切不就是我记忆中的美好片段吗。

虽然校友内疚在工作时间作私事,可是我已经失去了这一片记忆在过去整整一个月里。沉寂在一堆永远做不完的工作里,差一点就透不过气了。

这星期好像也拿一天假期,就在家里看书。把那些早该看完的好书认真的看完,然后再买新的:)

从工作狂的生活里走出来,我似乎感受到了活人的气息,我好想好好活。帮助我,让我每一天都在记忆中留下美好的时刻。但愿你成为我记忆中的美好。

Thursday, July 08, 2010

工作狂人 2

你知道吗,工作狂可以不吃不喝,只为了工作。甚至不在乎所有的一切只有工作。

虽然如此,我已经厌弃了这样的生活。我想等我还清车子的贷款,我就会想要离开一下。找回自己。

工作狂人是应该对工作狂热而不是麻木……

是那源源不绝的要求让我无法透气。

对于上司的一句谢谢开始觉得厌烦。一句谢谢就要了我的命吗?我呸!

工作狂人开始有自毁倾向,这……是征兆吗?离开的征兆……

Friday, May 14, 2010

工作狂人

近来,我又开始工作狂的生活。到底是工作真的很多,还是我刻意要留下来?
是我不懂得分配时间还是任时间支配?

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

对自己要有耐心

「严以律己,宽以待人」

这一直都是我做人的道理。随意任人犯我亦忍气吞声。今天,我却读到「对自己要有耐心」!原来我的严以律己,忘了给自己一点宽容,忘了我只是一个人这个事实。

虽要严谨生活却不该忘记我们不是与属世的争战而是属灵的。人岂能靠自己胜任?

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

What is love? n What is marriage ?

A student asks a teacher: What is love?

The teacher said: In order to answer your question, go to the paddy field and choose the biggest paddy and come back.

But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick.

The student went to the field, go thru first row, he saw one big paddy, but he wonders….may be there is a bigger one later. Then he saw another bigger one… but may be there is an even bigger one waiting for him.
Later, when he finished more than half of the paddy field, he start to realize that the paddy is not as big as the previous one he saw, he know he has missed the biggest one, and he regretted. So, he ended up went back to the teacher with empty hand.
The teacher told him, this is love… you keep looking for a better one, but when later you realize, you have already miss the person

The student asked: What is marriage then?

The teacher said: In order to answer your question, go to the corn field and choose the biggest corn and come back. But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick.

The student went to the corn field, this time he is careful not to repeat the previous mistake, when he reach the middle of the field, he has picked one medium corn that he feel satisfied, and came back to the teacher.

The teacher told him, this time you bring back a corn…. you look for one that is just nice, and you have faith and believe this is the best one you get…. this is marriage

Be courteous to all , but intimate with few , and let those few be well tried before you give them your confidence.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Precious Cross 宝贵十架 by Stream of Praise 赞美之泉

Original Music Video


Enlarged Lyrics (the singing is clearer)


敬拜讚美專輯 11 寶貴十架 Stream of Praise Praise and Worship album 11 "Precious Cross"

Lyrics:

Precious Cross 宝贵十架 bao gui shi jia

Verse 1:


zhu ye su wo gan xie ni
Thank you Lord, You died for me


ni di shen ti wei wo er she
With love, You gave Your life for me


dai wo chu hei an jin ru guang ming guo du
Brought me from darkness into the world of light

使
shi wo zai ci neng kan jian
Opened my eyes to see

Verse 2:


zhu ye su wo gan xie ni
Praise Your Lord, Your love for me


ni di bao xue wei wo er liu
Your blood of grace flows over me


bao gui shi jia shang yi zhi en dian yong liu
Your tender mercy pours down from Calvary

使
shi wo wan quan de zi you
Your love has set me so free


Chorus:


bao gui shi jia di da neng ci wo sheng ming
The precious cross, by its pow’r I am set free


zhu ye su wo fu fu jing bai ni
With my all, I worship at Your feet


bao gui shi jia di jiu en shi ni suo li di yue
Your saving grace, so secure in this promise of old


ni di ai yong yuan bu hui gai bian
It’s Your love unchanging for me



Powerpoint can be downloaded from the SOP website: http://www.sopmedia.com/powerpoint/trad_bi/04_%20precious_cross_bi.ppt

Friday, March 12, 2010

好好恋爱



Lyrics:

(孩子)﹕我的天父 可否讓我好好地談戀愛


不再流淚 不再傷痛 不再聚合又要分開


我的天父 我只想要安穩地找個人來愛


請讓我知道 那個人在不在


(天父)﹕我的孩子 難道你忘記了我就是愛


學懂愛我 學懂愛你自己 你就懂好好戀愛


我的孩子 何不嘗試安靜的慢慢去等待


你就會知道 那個人在不在


(天父)﹕你是否願意相信


每時每刻都在我手裹


沒有事情 是太早或是太遲


(孩子)﹕愛我的主 我願意相信


萬事萬物都在你手裹


請教我順服 你的旨意

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Understanding vs Ignorance

Understanding how something works makes living with it easier, whereas lack of understanding and ignorance promote fear and superstition and make us more critical of others. A birdwatcher does not study birds so that he can shoot them down and keep them as trophies.

~ Allan Pease, Body Language

Tuesday, February 02, 2010

爱和全世界

拖泥。水瓶里的笨蛋 ~~~Aquarious0119: 跌落凡间的天使

故事里说,天使再也不能飞回天堂是因为它对人世间的某个人产生了爱意,沉重的爱意让它的翅膀再也不能扇动,再也回不去了。它放弃曾经拥有的,来换取一份它 不能拥有的。

这样的一份爱到底该多沉重,才能让一个人放弃原本的东西呢?

我可以放弃什么来拥有你?没人问过我。我也没想过。

我真的不知道。

你是我拥有最好的,所以我不知道我还能有什么可以放弃。

我看了以上分享,心里一直想着这句话:“我可以放弃什么来拥有你?”

以前,我以为全世界就真的只有你。然而,当我发现原来自己是井底之蛙以后,我学会了放手。离开执着、自私的心,我看到了蓝色的天空。

如果我是天使,我会后悔放弃了全世界之为了爱一个人。爱不应该让我失去一切,而是让我学习在不完美中接受我们的不同。

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Printer? Toaster?

Wow! This is so the cool!




http://asia.cnet.com/crave/2009/12/22/toaster-looks-like-printer-behaves-like-one/?scid=nl_c_dp

I wonder if they can print something else on the toasted area? :-P

Thursday, November 05, 2009

天空 · Sky

我喜欢天空。

瞻仰天空,他总是在云的另一端。

虽然我看不见他的脸孔,可是我知道他在看顾着我。领我走过死荫的幽谷,总不撇下丢弃我。

我时常偏行己路,他却常保护。

他住在天上,云的另一端。

他是爱我的天父 <3

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