Diary #20081115

I'm feeling very bad... negative... every words from their mouth hurts. It's so hurting. Like I'm never good at anything...

During Secondary School, I play sports. Sports is the only area I was treated fairly. Although I am not the best one but I am confident in what I do.

Now if you ask me, I felt discriminated among those who are late to work...

My life has been dedicated to the job and yet I was said to be lazy, not hardworking... it bores down to may be I'm just too slow to come out with a good job. They've been saying, no need to worry about details but people like our clients actually is asking why this person has no title during the testing stage. People are so looking for details and I'm not suppose to focus too much on details.

I will try. And I will do as you said to neglect the details.

I need a break and a shoulder. I need my bed at home and I need the bolster I've long for. I need a pillow and some great nights of sleep.

I've just sold my soul to the company by working no day no night including weekends and holidays! How I wish I can just let it go....

Let it go... relax... let it go...