对自己要有耐心

「严以律己，宽以待人」

这一直都是我做人的道理。随意任人犯我亦忍气吞声。今天，我却读到「对自己要有耐心」！原来我的严以律己，忘了给自己一点宽容，忘了我只是一个人这个事实。

虽要严谨生活却不该忘记我们不是与属世的争战而是属灵的。人岂能靠自己胜任？

All I Need Is You

Left my fear by the side of the road
Hear You speak
Won't let go
Fall to my knees as I lift my hands to pray

Got every reason to be here again
Father's love that draws me in
And all my eyes wanna see is a glimpse of You

All I need is You
All I need is You Lord
Is you Lord

One more day and it's not the same
Your spirit calls my heart to sing
Drawn to the voice of my Saviour once again
Where would my soul be without Your Son
Gave His life to save the earth
Rest in the thought that You're watching over me

All I need is You
All I need is You Lord
Is You Lord

You hold the universe
You hold everyone on earth
You hold the universe
You hold
You hold

All I need is You
All I need is You Lord
Is You Lord
© 2005 Cbs/Epic/Wtg Records

What is love? n What is marriage ?

A student asks a teacher: What is love?

The teacher said: In order to answer your question, go to the paddy field and choose the biggest paddy and come back.

But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick.

The student went to the field, go thru first row, he saw one big paddy, but he wonders….may be there is a bigger one later. Then he saw another bigger one… but may be there is an even bigger one waiting for him.
Later, when he finished more than half of the paddy field, he start to realize that the paddy is not as big as the previous one he saw, he know he has missed the biggest one, and he regretted. So, he ended up went back to the teacher with empty hand.
The teacher told him, this is love… you keep looking for a better one, but when later you realize, you have already miss the person

The student asked: What is marriage then?

The teacher said: In order to answer your question, go to the corn field and choose the biggest corn and come back. But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick.

The student went to the corn field, this time he is careful not to repeat the previous mistake, when he reach the middle of the field, he has picked one medium corn that he feel satisfied, and came back to the teacher.

The teacher told him, this time you bring back a corn…. you look for one that is just nice, and you have faith and believe this is the best one you get…. this is marriage

Be courteous to all , but intimate with few , and let those few be well tried before you give them your confidence.

Come Holy Spirit

Precious Cross 宝贵十架 by Stream of Praise 赞美之泉

Original Music Video


Enlarged Lyrics (the singing is clearer)


敬拜讚美專輯 11 寶貴十架 Stream of Praise Praise and Worship album 11 "Precious Cross"

Lyrics:

Precious Cross 宝贵十架 （bao gui shi jia）

Verse 1:

主 耶 稣 我 感 谢 你
zhu ye su wo gan xie ni
Thank you Lord, You died for me

你 的 身 体 为 我 而 舍
ni di shen ti wei wo er she
With love, You gave Your life for me

带 我 出 黑 暗 进 入 光 明 国 度
dai wo chu hei an jin ru guang ming guo du
Brought me from darkness into the world of light

使 我 再 次 能 看 见
shi wo zai ci neng kan jian
Opened my eyes to see

Verse 2:

主 耶 稣 我 感 谢 你
zhu ye su wo gan xie ni
Praise Your Lord, Your love for me

你 的 宝 血 为 我 而 流
ni di bao xue wei wo er liu
Your blood of grace flows over me

宝 贵 十 架 上 一 直 恩 典 涌 流
bao gui shi jia shang yi zhi en dian yong liu
Your tender mercy pours down from Calvary

使 我 完 全 得 自 由
shi wo wan quan de zi you
Your love has set me so free

Chorus:

宝 贵 十 架 的 大 能 赐 我 生 命
bao gui shi jia di da neng ci wo sheng ming
The precious cross, by its pow’r I am set free

主 耶 稣 我 俯 伏 敬 拜 你
zhu ye su wo fu fu jing bai ni
With my all, I worship at Your feet

宝 贵 十 架 的 救 恩 是 你 所 立 的 约
bao gui shi jia di jiu en shi ni suo li di yue
Your saving grace, so secure in this promise of old

你 的 爱 永 远 不 会 改 变
ni di ai yong yuan bu hui gai bian
It’s Your love unchanging for me

Powerpoint can be downloaded from the SOP website: http://www.sopmedia.com/powerpoint/trad_bi/04_%20precious_cross_bi.ppt

好好恋爱

Lyrics:

(孩子)﹕我的天父 可否讓我好好地談戀愛

不再流淚 不再傷痛 不再聚合又要分開

我的天父 我只想要安穩地找個人來愛

請讓我知道 那個人在不在

(天父)﹕我的孩子 難道你忘記了我就是愛

學懂愛我 學懂愛你自己 你就懂好好戀愛

我的孩子 何不嘗試安靜的慢慢去等待

你就會知道 那個人在不在

(天父)﹕你是否願意相信

每時每刻都在我手裹

沒有事情 是太早或是太遲

(孩子)﹕愛我的主 我願意相信

萬事萬物都在你手裹

請教我順服 你的旨意

Understanding vs Ignorance

Understanding how something works makes living with it easier, whereas lack of understanding and ignorance promote fear and superstition and make us more critical of others. A birdwatcher does not study birds so that he can shoot them down and keep them as trophies.

~ Allan Pease, Body Language

爱和全世界

拖泥。水瓶里的笨蛋 ~~~Aquarious0119: 跌落凡间的天使

故事里说，天使再也不能飞回天堂是因为它对人世间的某个人产生了爱意，沉重的爱意让它的翅膀再也不能扇动，再也回不去了。它放弃曾经拥有的，来换取一份它 不能拥有的。

这样的一份爱到底该多沉重，才能让一个人放弃原本的东西呢？

我可以放弃什么来拥有你？没人问过我。我也没想过。

我真的不知道。

你是我拥有最好的，所以我不知道我还能有什么可以放弃。

我看了以上分享，心里一直想着这句话：“我可以放弃什么来拥有你？”

以前，我以为全世界就真的只有你。然而，当我发现原来自己是井底之蛙以后，我学会了放手。离开执着、自私的心，我看到了蓝色的天空。

如果我是天使，我会后悔放弃了全世界之为了爱一个人。爱不应该让我失去一切，而是让我学习在不完美中接受我们的不同。

Printer? Toaster?

Wow! This is so the cool!




http://asia.cnet.com/crave/2009/12/22/toaster-looks-like-printer-behaves-like-one/?scid=nl_c_dp

I wonder if they can print something else on the toasted area? :-P

Women, you need strength training!

http://www.quakeroats.ca/en/oats-and-you/for-your-health/womens-health/the-benefits-of-strength-training-for-women.aspx

天空 · Sky

我喜欢天空。

瞻仰天空，他总是在云的另一端。

虽然我看不见他的脸孔，可是我知道他在看顾着我。领我走过死荫的幽谷，总不撇下丢弃我。

我时常偏行己路，他却常保护。

他住在天上，云的另一端。

他是爱我的天父 <3

Happiness

How? (Typical C (DISC) Type)

I was asked, "What makes you happy?"

I have no idea!?

What do you do that would make you happy? I don't know. Deep down in my heart, I really don't know.

I smile when I watch drama, laugh at those jokes, cry when the scenes are touching but what makes me happy?

I can never make myself happy. The only thing I know is when other people recognised what I do is correct and accept it, I am happy. But most of the time, I only blame myself for not being able to do something that makes the other person happy.

I couldn't just walk away from depression... these mood swings is causing my life!

May be it's time to go to bed and hope that tomorrow will be a better day!

Tomorrow is a new beginning and I hope to open up my eyes to see a bright future :-)

Hero . Surrender . Love

"There's a hero, if you look inside your heart, you don't have to be afraid of what you are..."

"Surrender all you have."

"For My love is sufficient to sustain you."

These are thought I have until this moment of the day. Why? There are changes in my life. Every time when something changes, I get anxiety attack. I get so worried about why it changes and make too quick a decision I regret later. The uncertainty after the change makes me more worried than ever.

I kept hearing my mind singing "Hero". I saw a blogger blogged about Surrender. I know the love of God is sufficient to sustain mine and everyone else's life. But I am just so anxious. May be I am a control freak. I cannot let things go hay wire or ahead of me. I felt insecure.

I have a Hero who would die for me yet I did not surrender myself fully to Him to receive His wonderful and abundant Love. I just don't know why. I kept some part of me to myself.

I am in the middle of a journey to believe I can live only by His grace and trust only Him. As long as He never give up on me, I should never give up. Wen told me to put some confidence in this. As far as I believe He is my protector and hero, I will one day get to the place where I believe He is all I live for.

Laugh of the day!

甲：你年薪多少?
乙：800万.
甲：那一个月有80万哦!
乙：是的,这是基本工资.
甲：不错嘛,做什么的?
乙：做梦的......

1、"代沟"就是我问老爸觉得"菊花台"怎么样,他说没喝过
2、"自恋"就是下辈子我一定要投胎做女人,然后嫁个象我这样的男人
3、"无语"就是法官问:你为什么印假钞? 罪犯说:真钞我不会印。
4、"绝望"就是饭馆吃饭点了两菜,吃第一个:"世上还有比这更难吃的吗？！"吃第二个"靠！还真有!
5、"崩溃"就是，一位老太太走进ＫＦＣ,对服务员说：我要一个肯德基,一个麦当劳，还要一个比萨。
6、"白领"- 今天发了薪水，还了贷款,交了房租、水电煤气费，买了油、米和泡面，摸摸口袋剩下的钱，感叹一声：这月工资又白领了。
7、"蓝领" - 工头说快到发工资的时间了，一算自己的住宿费，伙食费，误工费，医药费，还欠老板100多，也就懒得去领了，叫蓝领.

Adapted from http://laozhabor.blogspot.com/2009/10/happy-mid-autumn-festival.html

You could have long gone.

Have you heard of this?

I have. In fact, I heard it mostly from direct sales agent. Why? Because they always testify to others saying that you could have long gone if you have not use our product.

Sounds true to me. I could have long gone if I haven't know Jesus Christ when I was going to be 12. A traumatic event could have sent me to the edge of committing suicide or a bad friendship could have lead me to become a drug addict and eventually die of using.

I should be grateful and I am but there is something keeping me from enjoying the joy of this revelation...

Yet, let me repeat, "I could have long gone, if I have not known Jesus Christ!"

Life . Change . Maintain

Ever since being diagnosed with diabetes, I started taking the med. I have no idea how these med are going to help but eventually my glucose level has been brought down near to normal level.

I now have to monitor my meals, make sure I eat right, sleep right and exercise right to maintain my health in order to prolong my life on earth. I have realised one thing in this process. Not even drugs can change anything over night. It is a process itself.

There are so many areas of my life which has not grown into maturity. They stay as it is since teenage until now. I had wished before that there would be one kind of drugs that can immediately change everything to new but there is no such thing eh.

Change is a process of life that no one can escape. Whether you like it or not, when situation changes, you'll be forced to change as well. Sometimes we fail; other times, we move on. Anyhow, we have to get back on track to make life better. It is not something we can not do and still progress. Change is the progress.

No matter how grateful I am back to life, nothing changed. I still need to work, I still face stress from work and all sorts of circumstances that forced me to make decisions. I still need to take the drugs to control my blood sugar, I still am not able to take breakfast because of the nauseous feeling in the morning.

However, I am alive! I need to maintain life by maintaining the changes I need to go through and overcome the obstacles that stop me from changing.

I have realised one thing. No matter how bad I have been, God still loves me. He never change and He maintained it that way all the time. We change so that we become more like Him and do things that pleases Him.

Although I sin, His grace is sufficient. When I fall down, He helped me up. He brought sunlight to my life and angels to kept me from falling. Have I not felt His presence?

The thing is, I have always fail to change to maintain life. I have failed Him not once but many times. I worried if He would turn away from me but I know He will not at least for now. Even if I purposely hurt Him by sinning against Him, He still comes and hugs me and said, "My daughter, that hurts but I still love you. " How much more I can run away from His abundant love? How far can I run to not see Him? No way. No way I am going to run away from all these changes I need to make.

The med, the exercise, the diet plan, the stress in life, the good and bad situations, the strong and weak part of me, they all need to change. Life is all about changing into a better person and to maintain it so that you know it's not by your strength that you can achieve it but by the hands of God who never change that mold you into a pleasant container of His love.

Coming back from Death

Hi,

I have been grateful to be alive.

The underwater fining, drifting, photographing makes the whole trip filled with joy. I'm having sea sick now. How I wish I am a fish that will not get sea sick and can stay underwater as long as I want. Nevertheless, I'm back. I was not hurt at all just not used to the "wavy" lifestyle on and in the sea.

Every dive, I was nervous. Every dive is dangerous to me. God protected me. Even the fish did not harm me. We'd enjoyed ourselves with our bosses, colleagues. What a wonderful experience we had.

We celebrated our COO's birthday there and had a sarung party that night! Wow, now that I think back, it was so cool to be able to celebrate birthday in a different way. May be next time he'll get his birthday celebration underwater with the sarung as well!

I was extremely exhausted when I reach home. I guess this is the peer pressure the doctor told me. I was forcing myself to do things I may not even think about in the first place. However, it was an enjoyable trip because from there I see all the colleagues are careful with me, the dive master always turn around to make sure I'm ok (or may be she was trying to see if everyone is ok). Anyway, everybody knows what I'm going through and was careful not to force me into anything too much for my body. They even care about what I eat for my meals. I was scolded when I took nasi lemak in the morning on the day back. I was thinking that it was alright since we're going home and I haven't been tasting their food. But they were concern and told me it wasn't right to let loose of control.

Well, it was a wonderful trip for me and I will never forget the experience even if I don't get to dive again. At least, the warmth from the concern and care of the colleagues and bosses were all over me. I am grateful to be alive!

If there is one thing I can do in the future, I would want to go dive without getting sea sick. Then I can enjoy a few days of fishes, sea water, sand, beaches, sun, the breeze from the sea, the stress-less moments, and feel God's been watching me from the sky above.

It was raining the night we departed from KL to Terengganu. We were hoping it will be sunny in the morning the next day. Thank God, it started raining only after we have completed all 5 dives and took our underwater photographs.

I just don't know how to express but I'm grateful to be back and alive and still in one piece!

Yeah~ breathing becomes one of the most exciting thing to do on land!

Life is but grateful after you realised living is the greatest thing on earth!

Death

I have never felt so near to death. For the first time, I decided to do something which is adventurous and dangerous due to my health condition.

Diving.

My company is organising a diving certification trip to Redang. I did not get doctor's consent but am very excited to go. However, due to certain health condition, there was a time I almost give up. Once I am in the pool, I felt like going to dive again.

So, today is the day we are departing to Redang. Dead or alive, I called it. I even sent an email to my dearest friends to inform them of my leaving and told them that could be my last words. I called my mom and dad and sis last night to tell them about my trip and it sounded like saying goodbye.

Don't take me wrong. I wasn't going to say goodbye but am preparing for any emergency cases. I am still looking forward to an appointment 2 weeks later. However, with the mind of everything is going to end soon, I feel more energetic to complete the things I'm suppose to do. It's a wonderful feeling. I guess that is why we are told to live like today is the last day you get to live and then you will do your best and enjoy the most of out life.

I was told I will meet Him -- my dearest Daddy there under the sea. If I get to dive, I suppose all His wonders will be unfolded in front of my eyes! I felt loved. I know even if I don't really feel it, He still loves me and will continue to love me no matter how rebellious I become.

Well, just to make sure I leave something behind if I can't do this again, I'd like to tell you, Jesus love you and me. No matter what, His love never ceased!

Journey of Faith - The starting point

If I were to start off a journey, I won't do it by myself. I have not enough ability to do it alone. I have friends who encouraged me along the way and people who cares enough to lend me their time and ears. Good people who share good advice and finally the good Lord who never forsake me.

At the very least, I have admitted that I need a doctor and look for one and found one. It is just the beginning. There are many more challenges I have never wanted to pursue in front of me but I cannot deny that those are the things that I need to do to be healed/cured from the disease. Or, I can choose to stay at this very point and sink like a ship, which I do not want to do that anymore.

So, I have to trained my physical body to be fit all the time and my keep myself psychologically healthy to prolong the journey of faith. May be I will succeed or fail but at least I tried to be successful instead of running away again this time.

Thank God for the courage and I pray that He who have strengthen me will continue to have mercy on me until I am fit for His kingdom.

Diary 20090910

Once again, that stress overwhelmed. I could not bear. I cannot accept the comment that says, "Do you know what is priority? Why can't you finish your work?" So, does priority means I can kill myself just to deliver what you want?

May be I should just admit and say, "Yes, sir. I cannot finish my work. Can you take over or have someone take over?" It's hard to take people's disappointment but I think it's time to just let them disappoint them let my life beheaded in their hands.

The next time this issue arise, I shall not hesitate and admit my fault and ask for someone else to do it. I can't. I just can't.