Movie - Sad story

As technology advances, people are getting more and more shallow. More and more Gay Movies are coming out with new stars acting in the film. What's wrong with the world?



Yes, Gay are human, we are not suppose to reject them but nor they are suppose to be encouraged to do what so ever is deemed sinful nature.



I can only sigh, "God, please save them as their sinful nature blinded them."



Feeling sad for the people...



"Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound that saved a wretch like me. I once was lost but now am found, was blind but now I see." ~ Lyrics from Amazing Grace

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Movie - "The Reaping"

Does it ring you on anything by looking at the title?



At first I thought, 'Oh boy, another Horror movie?'. I had a second thought after seeing the synopsis. I thought it is pretty much of a some sort of "Christian" portray movie. Well, I decided to go for the trailer on the official website. I hope to review the movie to see if it is truly about Christian faith or it is just another "Da Vinci Code" that twisted God.



For I think if gossiping about people is wrong and bad, what about talking bad about God who is our creator and ever Holy and Truth.



If you think seeing is believing, you can really see God. How? Build a relationship with Him. It is just like you and another person will never meet unless you are at the same place for someday. So, no harm trying isn't it?



"For God so loved the world that He gave His one and Only Begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal live" ~ Holy Bible John 3:16



You'll never forget your experience with God~~~

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Free time...

Had been a long time since I last visited a blog which I will always do to sort of be updated about someone.



I've long lost the feeling of getting back to the blog and feel the life of another person at the other side of the world. I'm here, living my life out of it.



So even if I'm getting some time for myself, I wouldn't visit it. Even if I'm damn bored, I'm not going there. It makes me feel disgusting visiting. I don't know, I just don't feel quite right.



Gals are hard to understand, even myself, I find it quite difficult to comprehend. Do you get me?

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Life

Life's about money? Is that so?



Life's about love? Love just ain't enough to survive... rounds back to money...



Life's about faith? Faith doesn't earn you a cent... rounds back to basic...



Life's about war? War is just cruel to make you sick... no money no gun...



Life's about what?

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Keep your head

You know, I SMSed a friend two nights ago, and it came out failed after 24 hours. I don't know what to do now.



I was downloading this Mac OS X86 for a friend, and of course I'm likely to play with this piece of new discovery myself but when I started to think, I'm just so geek - not enough time to find out new things about computer technology and I'll even get aroused when I see the downloading speed is up and I'm nearer to the success of getting what I want in my own thoughts.



I just need to keep my head down so that I don't do stupid things again. But I'm not sure how. I'm not sure how to make things right. Is there any manual or something about life that I can follow step by step? I don't see how am I suppose to live without money, without water, without food. And foremost, what is all these for? What is all these about?



Sometimes when some friends questioned me when I said, 'accordingly, this is right', what are you based on to say it is right? It is so hard for me to say it's the Bible that I believe in. So how true is this Bible, they'll asked. What do you think I should say? Or should I just keep my head and smile back with not a word?



It's difficult for me to find any common ground especially in terms of trend of thoughts with someone who has a different religion (I'd use this word) as me. They think different from me. If I were to lower my ground to reach them, I fear if I'd be dragged along into the darkness of life. I don't wanna get someone who is so good and nice before we get so close and then only found out that we're not for each other and break up. This had happened before and it hurts so much that I couldn't say I'm ok now. I'm not. So, I wonder very much.



May be someday, the Bible will show me the right way to go upon with life, with my currently rotting life...

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Reward vs Bribe

Subject: Police gets RM100 reward if you bribe them.



The Police are smart, we must be smarter, spread this news around so that we don't get arrested for trying to bribe.





This is just a gimmick by police...they will tahan u...then ask to pay bribe RM30...then when u giv they will catch u for bribing them...after tht they get RM 100...see how business are done...



Newspapers a few days ago. They are raising rewards to police to RM100 for reporting bribes made to them. So if u think u can get away with a bribe of RM50 for a traffic offence, better think again.



Cash reward for cops who arrest anyone trying to bribe them KUALA LUMPUR: A cash reward of up to RM100 and a letter of commendation will be given to police personnel who arrest anyone who attempts to bribe them.



Acting Inspector-General of Police Datuk Musa Hassan said the reward would be for Traffic, Criminal Investigations Department and Narcotics Department police personnel. He added that the reward was to spur policemen to uphold the integrity of the force. "The reward offer is also to let our men know that we appreciate them for their honesty and loyalty. "We also hope to inculcate in our men that accepting bribes is a very serious offence and does not pay," he added. In Kuantan, Pahang police chief Datuk Ramli Yusuff said the cash reward would be double the bribe offered and up to a maximum of RM100. Ramli told Bernama that the reward would be paid after the person who offered the bribe had been charged and the case concluded in the courts. "I will personally hand over the reward to the police personnel concerned," he said, adding that the incentive would be paid from the Pahang Police Fund. Earlier, at the monthly parade held at state police headquarters, Ramli said L/Kpl B! akri Pandak Ahmad of the Kuantan traffic police was rewarded with RM100 last month for arresting a man who had offered him a RM50 bribe.

aren't they making themselves look like monkey or clown? Making fun of themselves in front of public! This is awful.



Since young we were taught to maintain our dignity. We were taught that studying is for own good and gifts are just an incentives of your hard work and should never be misunderstood that study is to get the reward. So by putting this as the foundation, isn't the police forces working the other way round? Making police force take no bribes for the reward?



What is happening? Let me point out what's wrong with the quote above. Although it is taken from a forward mail but I think if this is in fact the real case, our society has better look into the root of the problem and not just temporary cover the surface.



First, Reward = Appreciation (Honesty and Loyalty). Does honesty and loyalty count with money? Where is the dignity in police? The root problem of this is the unequipped serving heart.



Second, Bride = does NOT pay (either way they are getting the cash payment). So accepting bribe is getting money, reporting bribe gets the same as well. What if people are willing to pay higher bribes? Does that sounds to you that the police can ask for higher bribes? So does the rewarding system actually works because they have to wait until case close while bribery has immediate pay...



Well, I do not see the gist of implementing such reward system. One thing I want to say is the education system of Malaysia. If we train the next generation well and we ourselves are man of word, we do not need to worry about wrong doings happening. However, if we accept bribes ourselves, then there is no point saying other people are doing wrong. Just the same as queuing. If the father doesn't queue up, the son will not even if the father insist he does so. See, the truth lies beneath. It is the father who does and the son follows. Not the other way round.



I'd like to use one sentence to conclude my thoughts. The son sees what the father is doing and follow. Remember, the younger generation will follow your foot steps. If you want them to be good, change yourself first.

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God will not answer me...

I haven't been very good spiritually. I haven't worship Him.



Only when comes to trouble times, I turn to Him.



I said He is my God but I did not worship Him as He deserve.



He will not answer me for my needs because I disrespected Him.



I deserve nothing but He Loves me.



My heart is a stronghold of the evil one, my heart does not worship.



I'm condemn for what I did.



I'm sorry for the things I made.



Father, may you bless me with a soft heart.



To worship you wholeheartedly, to seek you wisely.



I want to be but I was in bondage.



Break me free, so that I hear you...

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Though I...

Though I work very hard to tell people how hard I work, I was undervalued because I didn't produce the expected outcome.

Though I sit very straight to maintain my position, I was treated like I purposely block the people behind.

Though I ask God to protect me, I underestimate him and overdo on myself.



Though I did a lot of good things, I was not as good in others' eyes.



Faithful God, can you help me to gain insights from all these doubts and disbelief?

Faithful God, help me to be faithful...



Though I doubt, though I wonder, I want to be happy and believing. Cherish by your love is the ultimate goal isn't it?

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[from The Dog's Name] Dating Style

http://thedogsname.blogspot.com/2007/01/dating-styles.html

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[from other bloggers]What price friendship

http://thedogsname.blogspot.com/2006/01/what-price-friendship.html

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Type of friends. Will you regret?

There are so called many types of friends.

Some you can pour out your inner self;

some you can only share the brain knowledge;

some you can only share the same exercise,

some you can go traveling;

some you can go fishing;

some you can really talk/chat hours after hours;

some you can only be listener;

some you can only hope for when you're rich;

...



and many more types of friend if you wanna label them or categorize them.



But in our relationships, we base everything on this little thing called "TRUST". Merely just a simple word that says both of you are related.



I've been struggling hard. Now I know how the Father feels when we, the children do not trust Him, the Almighty God. Heart broken and sad.



So, will you regret to lose some one as a friend?

If you lost a chat buddy, you can easily get one;

if you lost a busy body, you can still get one or might as well be one;

if you lost someone to your heart, man, I'm not God, I'd really feel deeply hurt and sad, don't you think this is what you'll say?



I lost someone dear to my heart once. We were friends, deeply connected friends. Some how our point of view changes, our relationship shaken. We talk no longer about other things than school work, we play no longer because we like to hang out together, we eat no longer because we wanna fellowship, but on top of all because we respect each other as human.



Some what, there are more reasons to hate one than to love one because we human beings are so sinful. Yet, God loves us all, we try our best to love and to unconditionally love but we're weaklings and will somehow fail some stage.



Well, doesn't matter, I guess. The reason we're on earth is to learn how to become a more comprehensive and better person.



Do not regret but evaluate and proceed.

I always remind myself with this and proceed on with the next level in life.



A quote from a friend from a song:

La tristesse durera toujours = the sadness will last forever



To SHARE is to CARE ~ care to share?



May our lives be better and brighter as tomorrow approaches...

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Programmer vs. Developer

Small ISVs(Independent Software Vendor): You need Developers, not Programmers



This article is using a small company as a context, suggesting relevant issues regarding the term programmer and developer.



It is very easy to understand and it really does clear my doubts on how people work (job scope of the position).



Nowadays, companies are hiring people with diverse knowledge and therefore, a more comprehensive person is preferred.



Now I see how the trainings, exposures, and trouble shooting skills of mine get me a job.



I would suggest anyone who is still reluctant, to start thinking about changing your working style. Seriously consider about the overall environment that affects the outcome of your work. You are working to achieve better outcome and not static content.



I hope people would one day all being able to live a life in it's full length and not limiting their ability!



Further: from HACKNOT: Developers are from Mars, Programmers are from Venus

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Friendship: Worth or Not?

Quoted from Ting Fang's Blog: “Friend comes in and out in my life, you are only one of my passenger.”



Friendship. I started to wonder...



Let's ponder... Is someone a friend when you cannot trust and share?



Do you or do you not hurt by your love ones? You're hurt by you family members and yet you cannot do anything but continue to love them. But friends, you get to choose.



I've heard some definitions about friend: "A person whom you would share your ups and downs." Doesn't that requires a minimum trust?



I think friendship is just a term we use to put on or label the people around us. As two people grow closer, they become friends but realistically they don't, they just become two persons. Living in different family, sharing different thoughts and never have same conclusion upon everything. Because we are still two.



My expectations on friends were high. I thought we at least share something in common. But now, I'd rather keep quite than say a lot. I'll say when it is necessary. Even if I possess the knowledge, I wouldn't care much to share as there is no solid reason for me to share.



I lose trust and faith in human being. May be that matters only to my relationship with God. So, the best thing to do is to keep quite. As long as I say nothing, share nothing, I'd be clean from other people's book of record and after that shall disappear and never appear again.



Anyway, thanks for being my friend since. Only true friends shine. In the end, please get me right, I'm just trying to tell you, don't play play. Friendship is like fire, if you get too near, you get burnt; if you stay too far, you freeze. But there is no measurement because it depends on whether the fire is huge or just a catch of it.



Happy Friendship-ing~

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Malaysian Animated Series! Syoknya!

Here comes Malaysian Animated Saladin~

Wow



Great! Gotta give them some support: http://www.saladin.tv/main.php



Trailer: "The wise men says, 'We do not choose our destiny, it chooses us'."

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3 days before school starts

Today after CRSM meeting, I came back to hostel. Met a girl on the same floor. We had a short chat. She's studying medicine in UM, living at the other side of the elevator. Pretty nice, nice chat. She said she admire people who studies computer or mathematics, which includes me! So nice!

Later I started to download bleach musics, then chat with a long lost friend. We exchanged interest on songs and she told me she wanted to cry. I said, do so, I'm with you.

As I started to develop a habit of reading online news, I read a short story from sinchew daily. It was about a decision of a girl. Who made a painful but right choice and had a happy life after all. Nice!

As I lift my head to look out of the window, I saw the bright and shinny moon. Superb! But now the cloud is starting to steal it from my sight.

Reread a newspaper article, saying we do not have enough reading and that's why our common knowledge is so poor. He, Lee Jia Tong, suggested us to read:
1) Classics/Literature
2) Critics/Discussions
3) Judgment and Detective Novels
4) Interesting Knowledgeable article

Decided to spend my long lost friend a Saturday of Karaoke. We'd been missing each other for long.

Oh, met U-Fish's girl friend Elynne?(not sure how to spell) or may be is Evonne? hahaha... doesn't matter. Had dinner with Max, Fay and her bf, U-Fish and his girl friend. Thanks U-Fish for sending me and Max back to hostel.

Oh, gotta work on CRSM harder for public presentation soon.

Preparing to face my new and final semester challenges! Yeah~

Babe

Found myself someone who loves me much, who treasures me much. May be it's the distance geographically that makes us able to see the goodness of the other. Yes, she is pretty and nice, especially loves me.

I will try very hard to treasure this friend. We'd been very well together for about 6 months and this is a new year. Let's start a fresh page this year. May God bless me with a good relationship this time.

So, I am someone's babe. She is my babe. Let's see this friendship shines. At least I want to make sure things doesn't go bad until we can't be friends. That was a sad case during my form 1 where I "broke up" with a friend. That was a very sad period.

God, help me. This time I need to be and take up the responsibility to become a good friend since she start to treasure me before I act, just like Wen. Other than repaying the good, help me to treat her sincerely.

May happiness be the promises that connects us. We promised each other to become happy. So we always send good things and good words.

Happiness may it be unto you from God. *wink*

Thank you card ~ My MileStone

I did a whole lot of thank you cards (which is really a lot to me who never did any cards for people). I spent 1 hour writing, and another hour cutting and pasting and finally done! But I left out Datuk... So sorry.

I thought about my pendrive backup in the office and wonder how to get it back...

Shall I ask LaiSeng? Shall I ask who to help me? Wonder...

However, just appreciate myself for being able to make 20 thank you cards, for my room mate and MyBiz family. They may not get it timely but doesn't matter. It's a thank you card right! hahahaha...

~Blessed New Year buddies~

What am I doing this late?

I'm repairing the fucking, sucking, stupid, idiotic Canon Bubble Jet Printer!!!

This is ruin my life. I spent 2 and half hours to check, double check and still don't know why the printer doesn't print!!!

This is so fucking pissed me off!!!

I'm now having black fingers and black legs and still I can't figure out what happened to the stupid "No response" printer!!!

If I'm so loaded, I'd throw the printer down from my window (at 8th floor)!!!

You stupid idiotic printer!!!

MyBiz Temporary Staff ~ MileStone Completed!

I've been in MyBiz Solution for about 3 months. Get to go join their company trip, get to know people around and most interesting thing is I finally got to see the smile of Sandra, our lady boss! Awesome! She is very descent and very nice and friendly but may be she has some sickness or pain in her hands that's why she always look worry and sorrow.

Anyway, to conclude my work, Yuk Wai, my CEO, my mentor as well as my referee, who took me seriously and trained me well, did my appraisal. There are questions which were tough like which is the largest Malaysian company that you'd like to work with? This is like *tu tu tu * because my GK (General Knowledge) is sooooo much so limited. So I went on to say Petronas and which is correct, the Malaysian largest company!

Well, he concluded that I performed as expected, shine in the culture of the company!

1) I tried very hard to speak up and build trust.
2) I tried to reach my personal best.
3) I was given opportunity to lead a small group (of 2 people).
4) I adapt well with the culture and given offer to work in the company as I graduate!

Wow! I just secured myself with a job! Awesome! Isn't that God's blessing to me? I believe it is. God is always taking care of me even though I sometimes rebelliously go away from Him because we human always tend to forget the goodness that we receive after a period of time.

So, however, I'd want to thank God for what he gave me, the support during my working period, the strength to sustain high pressure of balancing my work and my project (Final Year) and the ability to know Him better as He mold me into a useful clay.

I realise the weaknesses in me and try to improve. I love MyBiz and I want to make it better in the future if I'd really work there.

Regards to my colleagues, my boss, and their children who came once in a while. May God bless them, continue to prosper them in their life, help them to enjoy the world with Love and passion and May the Grace of God be upon them and save them for eternity.

Thank you God for everything you'd prepared for me to go through. Although I may not be as obedience but you'd took good care of me, and I want to really thank you and will try harder to be good and obedient. Love you.

Thanks Hui Wen who has always supported me.

Thanks Lai Seng who treated me dinner on my last day of work.

Thanks Toh, my leader, who also treated me on my second last day of work.

Thanks Catherine for being such a nice colleague and good companion at work and at play.

Thanks Chun Yi for all the preparations and hard work without any complains.

Thanks Steve for being a role model to me.

Thanks Yuk Wai for his recommendation.

Thanks Lina for entrusting me with a task.

Thanks Joop for giving me opportunity to work.

Thanks Han for letting me to share my point of view.

Thanks Zuri for being an accountant who calculates my pay.

Thanks Yee Mei for handling all the stuff in the company and deliver my pay cheque.

Thanks Sandra for being the lady boss who act as a descent lady.

Thanks Laili for giving me opportunity to handle critical and urgent tasks.

Thanks Noriza for supporting me in the work.

Thanks Loh for helping me in designing images.

Thanks Noel for reminding me about Christmas and entrusted me for last moment jobs.

Thanks Datuk (which I miss out the thank you card) for being there.

Thanks Sandra's driver for giving her support and that she can work best.

Thanks all the children who came over and share their smiles.

Thank you everyone!

You're a unique and awesome person as I believe God created each and everyone of us differently so that we can help each other and we can build each other.

I'd really consider to go back and work in MyBiz as the company gave me a freedom to fall, learn and grow!

Shouldn't you tried out to apply as a programmer? I think you should. You'll be changed and you will experience more than you've expected or think of!

Happy New Year Everyone, and blessed year!

Obsessive Love Disorder

My Disease: Obsessive Love Disorder, which is a destructive disorder.

Main reason: Obsessives experience a double bind situation: separation is very painful, while contact is very frightening.

This is very terrible.

Let me point you to the right direction for reference:
The symptoms: Psychotherapy Resource

The test: Love Addict

If you find yourself have the same problem like me, please go and see doctor as soon as possible or seek professional help.